Breathe

its just sad to feel like a complete joke

its a freaking challenge 

If you want to be faithful and trustworthy , its simple

DONT put yourself in those situation to test temptation, SIMPLE!

if you are there its cos u want to, not cos someone made you. 

you are in charge of your decisions and actions. you cant blame anyone else. 

its all YOU.

if you even think of or plan to go there and plan to be some place you shouldn’t be, that was your first bad decision.

when you love someone you do whatever it takes to make that person secure and safe no matter what, you want to reassure that person you’re there for them, you care for them, you check up on them, (not every second like a crazy person) but you let them know you’re thinking of them, when you are in a group of people even thought you see your love almost every day, when you are in a group of people you want to make them feel special, get their attention, flirt a little, be playful, cos when you share your happiness in front of other people also makes you feel like your not afraid of anything.

and lets face it its fun to pretend your back then when you first met them. 

I am no expert but i know what makes me happy and i know how i like to be treated. 

when love is pure its simple, doesn’t mean you don’t fight, it means you are strong enough to have a conversation, listen to each other and get through it. and of course you enjoy the little simple things in life. 

xx

at work, in a car, playing games , forgot it, 

the thing u forgot  is me….

actions speak louder than words.

im sick of this

why do i have so much anger in me…. i know i have a lot of love to give…

but i never admit how much anger i have inside… but i dont really know where its coming from… i have a few ideas of where it might be coming from but are those people really worth my time… and should i really be caring this much about everything they do?

should i be helping people that dont want to be helped… should i step back… im scared if i do then that person might think im not there for him but then maybe its just the right thing to do… 

its hard to know what the right thing is….

when i think im doing the right thing by ‘helping’ i feel like im just making everything 100 time worse….

i think its time to stop.  stop all of this. 

stop sadness stop anger. but HOW?